Remembering how much I need God

January 12, 2010 at 4:37 am 1 comment

I sat down tonight to write the promised part 2 of “Finding God’s Will”. 

Obviously, I didn’t get that far.  I looked up some verses.  I thought about it.  And I realized how late it was, how tired I was, and that I need to gear up and get ready for tomorrow.

I’ll confess, this first day of classes hasn’t been quite what I expected.  It’s been a whirlwind, with lows and highs, but ultimately just exhausting.  I don’t feel ready for this to begin again.  I forgot I would actually have homework for three classes due Wednesday.  I’d forgotten, too, that with the fall semester I had nearly a week of orientation and boring nothing-in-particular to get ready and organized, instead of an hour.  I feel pretty drained right now.  (Which means I need to get to bed!)

And yet there’s this little thread running through my mind, reminding me that this is good for me.  It’s kind of painful to jump back in and suddenly have unsure footing (I don’t know my schedule, my friends’ schedules, what the workload will end up being) and have to recalibrate, but it certainly reminds me of my need for God.  When I lie in bed and or trot to class and think, Oh God, I can’t do this on my own, and I need help – well, that’s a good thing.  It reminds me that I shouldn’t be so self-sufficient; that I can’t, actually, do anything on my own. 

So.  Thank you, Lord, for the times that remind me in their very awkwardness how much I need you in everything!

It’ll be good.  I just need to give myself a little bit of sleep and time to adjust.  And not lean on my own strength.

On a brighter note, tomorrow I have my two fun classes – my Media Effects elective, and creative writing.  I looked at the creative writing syllabus online, and it looks intense.  But I have a sneaking suspicion that I’m going to love it.




Entry filed under: classes, college.

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1 Comment Add your own

  • 1. Joanna  |  January 12, 2010 at 7:20 pm

    Dear, you’re right – it’s good. God is there for you and you need Him. I need Him.


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